Ah, I think I misworded that response. I don't think it has anything to do with "benefits" as in getting others to feel bad/sympathize with me, so much as it has to do with a desire to feel helpless, and having that idea recognized in what my mind can only assume is the harshest form of that possible.
Also upon more thought it may play into my fear of rejection? Children often aren't rejected by adults, and if they are, it's don't gently and in a sugar-coated fashion. Perhaps being abused as a child would have validated me as being worthwhile while also giving me sexual release? Idk, this is all just self-speculation
IIN that I wish I had been sexually abused as a child?
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there are no benefits, what do you think you'd have got out of being abused?
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Ah, I think I misworded that response. I don't think it has anything to do with "benefits" as in getting others to feel bad/sympathize with me, so much as it has to do with a desire to feel helpless, and having that idea recognized in what my mind can only assume is the harshest form of that possible.
Also upon more thought it may play into my fear of rejection? Children often aren't rejected by adults, and if they are, it's don't gently and in a sugar-coated fashion. Perhaps being abused as a child would have validated me as being worthwhile while also giving me sexual release? Idk, this is all just self-speculation
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I was abused by my sister it did not give me any real benefits and it did not increase my feeling of self-worth.