Is it normal that i want to fail in life?

Maybe you are thinking that failing is easier.
Its not going to be long term. Its also not good for anyone around you if you try to fail because you should cannot help anyone else if you don't even help yourself.
Don't give up because it will be even harder to go back if you change your mind later.

I've messed up too and I wish there was a reset button but there isn't. I got used to making mistakes and just accepting that almost everything I do in life will never be good enough compared to what I could do.

I realized that I wasn't giving myself enough credit, I was just giving up. I was setting myself up to fail.

You're not alone. Just find yourself in this, the downward spiral, will stop and when you find yourself in the ruins of your demise, just look up.

There will be something that will pull you back up, and if there's no one there to give you a hand, then be that hand for yourself. Do it because that's what you deserve, you deserve that love, you should treat yourself as someone to treasure.

If it helps at all I believe in you, and I will be there if you ever need someone to talk to.

You want to be pitied.

achieve your failure

I feel ya. Everyday I feel like a shitty person and think I deserve bad things to happen

Life is never that bad. You wake up each day and things seem just a little bit better. You will be okay in time. Cry for me Argentina!

Sometimes you gotta hit bottom to find yourself and decide where and how high you want to go up.

well you're already failing on the internet in front of total strangers, so, there's that

Bad luck, then.

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