Is it normal that i wanna dissapear?

So I'm 17 and I was born in a 3rd world country. I always hated everything associated with the place. I always hated my life and wanted to kill myself. Everyone in here is rude as they hate people who are different (and yeah I was always different). I always hated my classmates, the people who were studying in my school in short I hated everyone in this place. I never actually tried to kill myself but wanted to dissapear forever. To be not born at all. I see happy people everyday on social media people who have nice families, countries, friends and everything else. I just graduated from school and I didn't go to prom. I missed 17 years of my life and think that the rest will be the same. I'm gonna move to the Netherlands in couple of months (for education). I lie to my parents that I'll return but I will never will. to the place where you get bullied everyday no matter if you are in school, in public transport or in the shopping malls (just because that you wear dark-red pants). Everyone calls you faggot, gay, homo. I never go out without my headphones. I really really really hate this place. We don't have proper healthcare, education, entertainment and so on. Imagine a place that you can't be yourslef as you might be disowned by your parents for this. Girls have no rights too. They don't leave their houses. Their stupid husbands won't let them do anything fun (hanging out with friends and etc.) To sum up, I would rather die than live in this place.