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Everything I use to do seems like such an effort: reading, drawing, exercise and even films and video games have become pointless, typing has become an effort. Today I curled up on my bed and swore and screamed at this frustration of mine, I even lied on the floor and did nothing for 30 minutes. I can't sleep till 1 in the morning and get out of bed at 10am. I'm an eigthteen-year old male.
It is not a matter of will. Nor of pot related demotivational syndrome. You just think these activities are pointless because you never see anything real coming out of them. You read and Play and do these things but really the only purpose is the satisfaction of a feeling. Of a craving. Nothing real ever comes out of them. So you are right. They are pointless. And they got boring. So it is either you find something else to that actually has an impact on your life, or you accept the fact that these are the only things you can do, then just sit there and enjoy the reading/movie/playing or whatever. What causes this frustration of yours is exactly that. Never seeing any real results. Besides an "achievement" , every result is just something in your mind. You need something tangible, to make you feel like your actions actually matter. But who knows, maybe you started doing these things and neglecting real life out of fear of responsabilities. In that case, it is just going to get worse, till you just lay in bed with nothing on your mind for hours on end,completely apathetic, seeing your goals but not the necessary means to achieve them. Your friends and relatives just make your frustrations grow by finding one thousand different ways to get to you, strangers kind of do that even more than them, so you just start raging and yelling at your computer screen and your laundry machine and your mailbox going: why nothing fucking works!? Then you get locked into a rage-sadness-apathy-mania-rage-mania-apathy-sadness cycle. Shitting on everybody because of your very low tolerance to frustation. And feeling bad about it at the same time. Or immediately after. Yeah, I am talking about and to myself right now. Fuck the world!
I think laziness makes more laziness. Find something to do that you enjoy and force yourself to do it. That should get the ball rolling. At least that helps me when i get stuck in a rut. I find being active (either physically or mentally) makes you want to do more things. It does for me at least.