Is it normal that i think toruture/rape/humiliation is hot ?

-And is it normal to feel guilty about it ?

I've always found it sexy, not in real life of course, but in fiction or in my mind, it's hot as fuck. Also, I think stories like the ones written by "Beatrice-The-Golden" On Fanfiction.net are really sexy.

Another thing is that I get guilty; every time after I'm "Done" (Guess doing what), I get really guilty about what I fantasize about. Having a cousin who was sexually assulted doesn't help.

*I've always liked it. When I was 14 and saw "Clockwork Orange", I started feeling "Weird".My first sexual fantasy was of being dominated by a boy I like*

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Based on 46 votes (39 yes)
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Comments ( 11 )
  • shade_ilmaendu

    You only have the fantasy because you cannot begin to fathom the reality. Still, you're disgusting.

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    • ya-lyublyu-tebya

      I don't think you understand.

      I know rape is disgusting, I know torture is disgusting. I didn't choose to like this sort of thing.

      I'd never rape someone, rapists are terrible people, if you (or someone you know) has been sexually assaulted, I'm really sorry, that's horrible.

      The reason I posted this was because I wanted to know if there were other people who shared my fetish.

      *And yes, I do get guilty, it's not like I think "Rape! Cool!", I hate my fetish.*

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      • shade_ilmaendu

        I'm just a little confused as to how someone can stand to hear a person victimized and begging for someone to stop and be turned on... It seems so counter to the reaction someone should have...

        And I have been assaulted, more than once. It's not pretty when it's real. :/

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        • ya-lyublyu-tebya

          I really don't understand either, I've always wished I had a more normal fetish like feet or stockings or something.

          I doubt it is.

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          • shade_ilmaendu

            Can you think of any triggers that might have led to you being into this kinda thing? Not saying that's necessarily the case, just rambling off ideas. And have you considered bdsm? Bondage, domination... Stuff like that, even Roleplaying is a safe alternative, since it's consensual and there are safewords.

            ...for some reason, autocorrect tried to make roleplaying say Romeo aging... Wtf?!?

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            • ya-lyublyu-tebya

              Not really. And dude, I'm not gonna go out and rape people, I know it's wrong.

              pffft lulwut ?

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  • icanhascheezburger

    A lot of people have the same if not similar fantasy, they just won't necessarily admit to it; as far as you go, I think it's a normal fetish.

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  • Dingo88

    I think your perfectly normal. My boyfriend will even comply with my fantasies of this sort because he likes it too. I think more people get off on control, or lack there of than will admit it:)

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  • iLuvMCC

    Its very hot! U r normal in my eyes.

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