Is it normal that i think that i'm not going to get older than 20
I never really thought about the future because i always thought it never was going to happen. I always had the feeling that when i will reach a certain age, around 20 years old something life changing would happen to me. I always had the feeling that it was death because i never was and i still am not able to look past that point, to plan ahead for when i get to that age. This thought of mine is actually a nuisance to me because if i think that i won't get to that age i also won't do anything to hone my skills, i don't have a motivation to guide me.