Is it normal that i think i shouldn't be proud of anything?

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I'm a really private person and I'm very uncomfortable with talking about myself and drawing attention to myself.

At school, I have a reputation for being lazy and carefree about schoolwork. I feel like I’m the black sheep in the family though I'm not particularly a John Bender or something. I feel like it’s too late for me too even change because I feel like this is who I am. It's 2013 and I'm in college now but i still feel like the same person i was in 2008. Why should I even bother changing the way I look, the way I talk and shit when my family will just criticize me for being fake (they are as conservative as fuck)?

When I think i need to change and take responsibility, even over
little things, I feel the need to completely change myself overnight and yeah, since it's impossible, I just don't do anything.

I think I shouldn't be proud of anything because I don't really have anything to begin with, i guess. Plus I think people will think I'm cocky when I don't have the right to. Am I too sensitive? Is this normal? Am I depressed or something??

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  • wrdayjr
    10 years ago | pl

    One of the main things I have recently learned about myself is, Avoidant Personality Disorder :) 2 things from me to you, 1) get a counselor, do not try to change yourself by yourself 2) you have mentioned symptoms of more than one issue and the issues are difficult to root while they are all mixed up like that (i.e. get a counselor). I'm not saying that you need someone, a counselor, to "fix" anything. I am saying that a counselor can be quite helpful organizing things, such as symptoms, with you so that you may decide what, if anything, you want to change.

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  • thegypsysailor
    10 years ago | pl

    What do you think needs changing, and why? Making a change for yourself is fine, but doing it for others is pointless.
    We all have things we'd like to change about ourselves, but not letting it become an obsession is the adult thing to do.
    For the moment focus on school. After that, take stock of your life and decide what it is you actually want from life and pursue it.

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  • [Old Memory]
    10 years ago | pl

    It doesn't matter like if you're like proud and stuff it's just made up. You can just make yourself proud like change your feelings like how everyone can, it's all fake like you just make up if you're proud or not. Like it doesn't matter, it's fake you can just feel how you want at will. Pineapple.

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    • wrdayjr
      10 years ago | pl

      What? Holy hell, stop talking. Please?

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      • [Old Memory]
        10 years ago | pl

        Holy is hell but like it's more the opposite like really because of the insinuation and stuff. So I wouldn't be so proud of like saying that because it doesn't make any like sense you know.

        Orange like.

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