Is it normal that i think differently than everyone else?

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So I almost never feel any kind of emotion. When I do it is always either attraction (not necessarily romantic, just that person is really cool), sadism (wanting people hurt and in tears begging for mercy, which I refuse), narcissim (being overly concerned of how people think about my brains and how theirs are too small to understand what I understand (sometimes I solve mystery books parway through, which doesn't work well with my humbleness)), anger (but even then I am usually still pretty level headed and think through what I'm doing), or sadness(never anything specific, just anything and everything). I never feel amusement, embarassment, or any other emotion listed above. When people get hurt (real life and movies), I feel the urge to laugh. I'm a good actor because I always have to figure out which emotion a normal person would have and act it out on the spot, without warning. My entire life feels like a lie. When I open a present, I'm not disappointed, but I never feel surprised or happy, even if it's something I really want/didn't epect. Sometimes I hallucinate. Part of the time it's just noises (screams, people calling my name, or footsteps), part of the time it's things that aren't there (i.e. Slender Man, little blue and white stuffed animal watching me), and part of the time it's seeing things wrong (like thinking a laundry basket is a small child, mistaking a clear glass bowl for a metal one that screws into something). Everything feels so disconnected, almost like I have two minds in one body: one for thinking and one for doing (sometimes I do stuff without intending to do it, although it always eems to be thought through beecause there is almot never bad consequences). It's almost like when you're playing a video game, your mind for thinking, and your hands for playing. It's maing me really nervous because I've never heard odf anything like this, I don't know what to do. Should I see a psychiatrist? I just really am not sure, please help, I'm scared.

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  • justcarrots
    11 years ago

    I could see this resembling anti social personality disorder, but not quite. You say you have no emotion but describe a plethora. Asbergers perhaps. But to say you think differently suggests you know everyones cognitive patterns, and thats just not the case. Speaks to your narcissism.

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  • noid
    11 years ago

    Yes see someone.

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  • prof.oak
    11 years ago

    This, to me, does not sound like the cognition of a sociopath. Have you always thought this way? Was there a point when you started feeling disconnected? Have you always felt that your mind was dualistic? Such as 2 minds in one body....which mind would you say is "you"? Which one would you say wrote this post? Have you always had narcissistic tendencies? I may be able to help you on a more personal level if you elaborate a bit more.

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    • John_the_Smith
      11 years ago

      Sorry for being late to get back to you-holiday madness and all.

      No, I have not always thought this way.

      There was a point, around 12 years old.

      My mind started feeling dualistic when I started feeling disconnected.

      The thinking one is the one I would say is me.

      The thinking one wrote the post, I would say.

      Not always, the narcism started around 12 years of age.

      BTW, i don't know if this helps any, but I had a very stressful childhood and nobody to talk to about it-no close friends, never got a girl, and no really close family members.

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  • Maya05
    11 years ago

    I'm in no way an expert in mental health but the first thing I thought of after reading this is that you could have some form of sociopathy or even anti-social-personality-disorder. Maybe not completely, but it sounds like a lot of the things you have described fit those disorders. Personally I would look into those disorders or possibly other ones related to it. Also talking to a doctor about these things. They could have a good suggestion of where to look for help or treatment.

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