Is it normal that i take my aggression out on those closest to me?

I wouldn't focus on change as much as acknowledgement of your triggers. Once you can identify the source of the upset you can better work through it. Our loved ones often feel it more because we feel comfortable around them and don't hold back. But they are the ones who matter, not the superficial friendships that add nothing to your quality of life. As long as you apologize and aren't just a dick because someone else did something that pissed you off. I have a coworker that bears the brunt of my anger often. It use to sound like I was angry with him but I make a point to let him know I am just venting and I know it isn't his fault and he is likely just as annoyed as I am, and much more quiet about it. Having someone who allows you too vent is a good person to have in your life.

It's because you k ow they are there for you no matter what

Sort your life out you fucking drama queen

Acknowledgement is the first step to curing that nasty temper.

I used to be that way. It was mostly hormones; only sixteen back then. Screaming, remorse, shutting to self, repeat. Familiar? That's untreated depression. Could be clinical. My bestfriend was a d-bag for a whole year throughout the time he relied on anti-depressants (ironic enough).

Try this:
1. Take a piece of paper and write down the names of your loved ones that you hurt. Then state a brief sentence why you were last mad at them. It could be something as simple as, "He ate the last fruit bar."
2. After that, turn the page and jot down what you want that person to do next time.
3. Talk to the respective person about your second page and see if they want to compromise.
3. If yes, you've to return the favor by being more patient with them. If no, then find an alternative solution to see things the optimistic way. "I can always get another fruit bar from the store."

Good luck on resolving your depression and fixing hurt relationships.

Your young - it's hormones! My son's the same and I have him on herbal Kalms tablets that take the edge off it. BUT, I explained to him that if I throw him out there is no-one else who would let him live with them, spend their money on food and clothes for him, or give him money - so he'd better realise which side his bread's buttered on. Go punch the pillow, but be careful what you say coz you can't take it back!!

I don't think this should be accepted as normal - especially if you get abusive on your loved ones, whether it's physical or verbal. Find another method to vent your aggression. You could do something to physically exert yourself and engage in a favorite form of exercise. Find a proper vehicle for expressing yourself such as writing, making artwork, playing music, or just talking to friends about things that you would otherwise be aggressive towards your family about.

I think it's easier to take your issues out on people who are close to you, because part of you knows they will forgive you. Someone who isn't very close might not. I think you need to find another way to deal that doesn't involve hurting those you love, but I don't think it's abnormal. A lot of people do it.

Its only logical:
rage to friends = damage on friendship
rage to strangers = enemies
rage online = feeling stupid after
rage to family = theyve known you and are absorbent of your situation

I've been exactly where you are, even to the point I hurt people I love. If this is a frequent thing, I'd tell you to talk to a good psych cus for me it was part of my bipolar disorder, but it may be somewhat different for you, it could br borderline or even something less serious depending on the exact circumstances. But I'm no doctor and it sounds like you could use a pro to jeep you. But I'll fave this and give you email and IM info if you want to talk ever :)

Some people take their anger out on others, some people focus it internally. I'm the latter, you're the former. It doesn't make either of us wrong. We're just what we are, and we both need to find better ways of dealing with anger in the first place.

I take my aggression out on floor walkers in the mall by punching whatever item their pretending to browse out of their hands. At least I think theyre floor walkers. If not thats what they get for shopping so close to me.