You might have a genderqueer identity. Google that and see if any of it resonates with you.
I also wonder if it's normal for women to feel apathetic about their gender. The definition of what it is to be a woman has changed so much in the last hundred years or so, our heads are still kind of spinning. There was a time when femininity was defined by a narrow set of things that are no longer relevant to the modern woman. Ideas of equality sometimes meant appropriating male gender roles, but some women didn't want to become men just to be strong and independent, bu the problem was, we had no other model--we had the "weak" female model we were trying to liberate ourselves from, and the "strong" male model which wasn't female. It's obviously very possible to be both strong and a woman, but most strong women have had to go off the map a bit in defining their own gender roles for themselves, because the historical models were of so little help.
It is natural to feel that gender roles are confining and restrictive. I suppose the biggest question here is if you simply feel limited or confused by the female identity (which is normal, because right now, there *isn't* a universal female identity) or if you feel dysphoria, that is, a sense of "wrongness" when you think of yourself as female. If you have dysphoria, that's a clue you may be trans or genderqueer.
I'm still trying to figure a lot of this out myself. Figuring out where you stand might take a lot of time. Read up on gender politics and queer identities, and maybe you will find something that helps you.
Is it normal that I see myself as a different gender?
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You might have a genderqueer identity. Google that and see if any of it resonates with you.
I also wonder if it's normal for women to feel apathetic about their gender. The definition of what it is to be a woman has changed so much in the last hundred years or so, our heads are still kind of spinning. There was a time when femininity was defined by a narrow set of things that are no longer relevant to the modern woman. Ideas of equality sometimes meant appropriating male gender roles, but some women didn't want to become men just to be strong and independent, bu the problem was, we had no other model--we had the "weak" female model we were trying to liberate ourselves from, and the "strong" male model which wasn't female. It's obviously very possible to be both strong and a woman, but most strong women have had to go off the map a bit in defining their own gender roles for themselves, because the historical models were of so little help.
It is natural to feel that gender roles are confining and restrictive. I suppose the biggest question here is if you simply feel limited or confused by the female identity (which is normal, because right now, there *isn't* a universal female identity) or if you feel dysphoria, that is, a sense of "wrongness" when you think of yourself as female. If you have dysphoria, that's a clue you may be trans or genderqueer.
I'm still trying to figure a lot of this out myself. Figuring out where you stand might take a lot of time. Read up on gender politics and queer identities, and maybe you will find something that helps you.