IIN that I remain a Republican even though I hate Republicanism?

I forgot to add Newt Gingrich, Mike Huckabee, Pawlenty, George W, Dick Cheney, and on and on. I can't think of a single Republican today that I could vote for in good conscience. They are all traitors. They've ruined America. They killed our credit rating, and THEY CREATED THE CURRENT DEFICIT. They think you can have government services without paying for them! How can we have a police, fire dept, army, road construction/repair, and so on without paying taxes? How can they put us into the longest war in our history and not pay taxes? We went to war in 1941 and paid taxes to afford it; bought war bonds; lived with rationing so we could win that war. But now we send poor kids (rich ones don't join) to their deaths or disfigurement and won't pay the bill. I hate my party!