Is it normal that i need music 24/7 ?

// The Man on the hill //
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I was walking down the hill
Raining so cold
felt my skin chill

There is a road covered in grass
I waited for a bus So hasty

With only a driver on the seat
I didn't know if it was the cold or that the bus was ghostly
Then I asked the bus driver I am going to the church
He looked at me with his clear eyes
They seemed they could look in someone's past
I carried on and took a seat
While i was thinking about the grave i visit

Where I bury my love
With eyes so dry
that the rain cried
I forget to say her goodbye

I came to the church's gate
And I asked the bus driver how much
He said 7 dollars for 2
But I was the only one on the bus i believed
He said did u really loved her or hated her
I got astonished for what he asked
For a moment I saw him and said, you are drunk
and he left
I got to the church
And it was still raining and i was still dreaming about her
I got to the church I felt so heavy in my heart
Thank you god that i didn't know
And thank you god that I just don't care anymore
And thank you god u gave me this life
And thank you god u took her away
And thank u god i gave her to you
He takes a gun and aims for his throat and says

and Thank u god to take me with her.