Is it normal that i miss feeling that way?

There's something kind of delicious about despair. There's plenty that's dreadful about it, of course, and I don't want to go back to some of the places I've been. But I do understand what you mean.

Well, when you're in despair you're able to avoid people, relationships, and it's also a method of controling others. There many reasons why people stay in despair, none of them are good. trust me, you don't want to go back there. You're much more valuable out of despair rather than in it.

I honestly feel the same. I feel like it's because I don't know how to be happy. Sadness is the only think I've ever known so I feel empty without it. Listen to the song Lithium by Evanescence. She speaks of being in love with her sorrow. I think that is what's going on with you.

It's quite normal really, you get used to it, absorbed in it, addicted to it. It's just all what you're used to, I've been through this. Just keep your chin up and think for the better. When you look back you might see how badly it effected you.

Feeling emotions beats feeling medicated any day. I'd rather wail at the world than mumble at it.

I know what you mean. I've felt the same way before during my "peak" times. I'd start to miss the melancholy. maybe that's why It always seems to find its way back to me :-/

karma... it's gonna getchya... lol