It does seem to me that you did love your mother's aunt, since you say that you cry in your dreams (perhaps nightmares about her death)...I have seen a lot of death, both in my family (I had a brother die when he was 7 and I was 9), extended family, friends, church family, and co-workers...I have to admit that generally I do feel a loss as long as the person's mind is still responding around the time of death...If not, it seems to me that the person is already dead (though perhaps not physically--I had a grandfather whose brain was fried mainly through alcohol a number of years before his actual body died...you couldn't communicate with him...). However, it is possible that someone's death, a number of deaths, or some other activity, may have shut off your mind (emotions) to this...I'm not sure I consider your situation normal, but I would hesitate to call you abnormal, insane, or anything of the sort, either...
Is it normal that I'm not hurt by death
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It does seem to me that you did love your mother's aunt, since you say that you cry in your dreams (perhaps nightmares about her death)...I have seen a lot of death, both in my family (I had a brother die when he was 7 and I was 9), extended family, friends, church family, and co-workers...I have to admit that generally I do feel a loss as long as the person's mind is still responding around the time of death...If not, it seems to me that the person is already dead (though perhaps not physically--I had a grandfather whose brain was fried mainly through alcohol a number of years before his actual body died...you couldn't communicate with him...). However, it is possible that someone's death, a number of deaths, or some other activity, may have shut off your mind (emotions) to this...I'm not sure I consider your situation normal, but I would hesitate to call you abnormal, insane, or anything of the sort, either...