I wasn't sad at all at my Grandmother's funeral or one of my friends, although they asked me to give a speech which was really awkward so I pretended to be sad. And when my mom passed away I was sort of in shock but not sad at the funeral, after a few days I began to miss her and that's when the sadness really set in. And when my best friend died I was mostly angry about it and in shock that it happened, it just seemed so unreal. I would have dreams of him in his coffin, he would open his eyes and smile at me. It was really sad for a year. But eventually I moved on. Eventually after all the death, it just left me feeling like life is meaningless, we're here, we work, we eat, we play, we die... seeing too much death really just makes you realize how meaningless life is.
And to think all humanity is really doing right now, running around working, just to keep an idea of "money" in circulation just is really depressing. Like there is nothing bigger we're working towards but a self fulfilling prophecy of materialism & capitalism.
Is it normal that I'm not hurt by death
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Everyone experiences death differently.
I wasn't sad at all at my Grandmother's funeral or one of my friends, although they asked me to give a speech which was really awkward so I pretended to be sad. And when my mom passed away I was sort of in shock but not sad at the funeral, after a few days I began to miss her and that's when the sadness really set in. And when my best friend died I was mostly angry about it and in shock that it happened, it just seemed so unreal. I would have dreams of him in his coffin, he would open his eyes and smile at me. It was really sad for a year. But eventually I moved on. Eventually after all the death, it just left me feeling like life is meaningless, we're here, we work, we eat, we play, we die... seeing too much death really just makes you realize how meaningless life is.
And to think all humanity is really doing right now, running around working, just to keep an idea of "money" in circulation just is really depressing. Like there is nothing bigger we're working towards but a self fulfilling prophecy of materialism & capitalism.