Sounds like it's time for you to make some changes, which you should've made already. You can't let negative thoughts consume you otherwise nothing will ever change. The reason you are where you are right now, you're afraid of taking a risk. The best place to start might be to start from scratch and give yourself a fresh start. Great success comes at a cost. It seems you are already paying that price, which means you're on the path. The rest is your task.
Instead of waiting for a reason to change, you start living everyday like it's your last. You live this moment to its furthest capability. Whatever it is you're afraid of or whatever it is you wanna do, doing it is gonna be a hell of a lot better than killing yourself no matter how hard it is for you. Even if you have to go way outta your way to do it. It doesn't matter what the past is, what people think, or how many times you get rejected along the way. The way I look at it, as long as you know you're doing everything you possibly can, then you have nothing else to worry about.
Your reply is kind, but I think you kind of lack insight into MDD. Depressed people like me, struggle making these changes and often need help and support to get things going before any confidence in ones self can return. The problem is people are distancing themselves from me. This is a big factor in why it's gotten so bad to begin with.
I'm sure if I had your confidence or your friends/family I wouldn't be in the situation I am. It's not fair to ask you to resolve all my problems or give me the quick fix that'll make everything better. I guess posts like this just help me vent, and maybe find some advice that can help improve my situation. Even if only slightly.
Your right, I'm not sure what would be considered MDD and I don't know what your depression is like because I'm not you. It's different for everyone.
Looking at my own life, I'm sure I have some severe sort of social anxiety. Growing up I used to get panic attacks often. I've also had phases of depression including one I'm in right now. Believe it or not, I contemplated suicide at one point. I've never been diagnosed with anything, but I can read between the lines. Recently, I've noticed it has not only affected me emotionally, but physically as well, such as headaches/migraines, feeling tired all the time, and more. Similar to you, I don't really have friends left. My family isn't bad, but I feel distant for the fact I've had issues with them in the past. In fact, I probably shouldn't even be giving advice. The reason I'm responding to you right now is because I sympathize with you.
I've found it within myself to start making changes within the last couple years. I moved away, found a job, and started going to school for IT, which I'm now close to finishing. At least that's my start. I'm not sure what your impression of me was, but not many things have been given to me. I have to find that within myself. Although, some experiences along the way have probably helped me with that. Making drastic changes is a struggle for anybody. You can get through the darkness, but the only thing that will set you free is living through the pain.
I'm definitely not the most confident person, but right now I'm actually the most confident I've been in my life. However, I will agree confidence is something you may need to build up. When you're down in a hole so far, change may not be achievable overnight.
I don't wanna sound like a dick, but I learned the longer you sit and feel sorry for yourself the worse it becomes because you have no hope. You don't have to accept my viewpoint at all and it's probably what you don't wanna hear, but unless you convince yourself of that mindset I don't think you will ever have the ability to change your life. It's just the blunt, dead honest truth.
Is it normal that I'm not afraid to die anymore?
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Sounds like it's time for you to make some changes, which you should've made already. You can't let negative thoughts consume you otherwise nothing will ever change. The reason you are where you are right now, you're afraid of taking a risk. The best place to start might be to start from scratch and give yourself a fresh start. Great success comes at a cost. It seems you are already paying that price, which means you're on the path. The rest is your task.
Instead of waiting for a reason to change, you start living everyday like it's your last. You live this moment to its furthest capability. Whatever it is you're afraid of or whatever it is you wanna do, doing it is gonna be a hell of a lot better than killing yourself no matter how hard it is for you. Even if you have to go way outta your way to do it. It doesn't matter what the past is, what people think, or how many times you get rejected along the way. The way I look at it, as long as you know you're doing everything you possibly can, then you have nothing else to worry about.
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Your reply is kind, but I think you kind of lack insight into MDD. Depressed people like me, struggle making these changes and often need help and support to get things going before any confidence in ones self can return. The problem is people are distancing themselves from me. This is a big factor in why it's gotten so bad to begin with.
I'm sure if I had your confidence or your friends/family I wouldn't be in the situation I am. It's not fair to ask you to resolve all my problems or give me the quick fix that'll make everything better. I guess posts like this just help me vent, and maybe find some advice that can help improve my situation. Even if only slightly.
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Your right, I'm not sure what would be considered MDD and I don't know what your depression is like because I'm not you. It's different for everyone.
Looking at my own life, I'm sure I have some severe sort of social anxiety. Growing up I used to get panic attacks often. I've also had phases of depression including one I'm in right now. Believe it or not, I contemplated suicide at one point. I've never been diagnosed with anything, but I can read between the lines. Recently, I've noticed it has not only affected me emotionally, but physically as well, such as headaches/migraines, feeling tired all the time, and more. Similar to you, I don't really have friends left. My family isn't bad, but I feel distant for the fact I've had issues with them in the past. In fact, I probably shouldn't even be giving advice. The reason I'm responding to you right now is because I sympathize with you.
I've found it within myself to start making changes within the last couple years. I moved away, found a job, and started going to school for IT, which I'm now close to finishing. At least that's my start. I'm not sure what your impression of me was, but not many things have been given to me. I have to find that within myself. Although, some experiences along the way have probably helped me with that. Making drastic changes is a struggle for anybody. You can get through the darkness, but the only thing that will set you free is living through the pain.
I'm definitely not the most confident person, but right now I'm actually the most confident I've been in my life. However, I will agree confidence is something you may need to build up. When you're down in a hole so far, change may not be achievable overnight.
I don't wanna sound like a dick, but I learned the longer you sit and feel sorry for yourself the worse it becomes because you have no hope. You don't have to accept my viewpoint at all and it's probably what you don't wanna hear, but unless you convince yourself of that mindset I don't think you will ever have the ability to change your life. It's just the blunt, dead honest truth.