Is it normal that I'm extremely confused about religion?

*groan* oh, I've seen that comment before. Scientifically, what loopiesoupie said makes no sense. They may watch quantum physics videos, but some basic science and biology would enlighten them much more.

Anyway. I'm very glad Unimportant has helped you find what you need. I'd just like to add, and I'm sure this has already been established, that religion should serve its followers, not the other way around. You know this: religion connects you to your culture and gives you reassurance. That should be the point of religion. Sadly, some people are told that they should serve and even fear their religion, making the whole prospect of being religious seem very stressful and messy.

You don't have to stick yourself in a specific religion, or throw away your faith because society's version of "religion" seems bad. You have your beliefs, and they help you. That's all that needs to be.