Is it normal that i'm completely okay with the idea ofdying right now?

I'm not really suicidal. I can't ever imagine trying to seriously hurt myself physically. But I have social anxiety and I'm always in and out of depression. Since I was 10, I've always felt that I just don't care if I were to die at any moment. I don't feel fear or anything about it. I think I am apathetic about the topic of dying or death.

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  • You are obviously just a child with no idea of what life can be like. There are millions of people on this earth fighting tooth and nail to survive each and every fucking day, but you 'just don't care'. Do you have any idea of how spoiled and childish that sounds?
    I wish you could go to the refugee camps in the Middle East and Africa and see for yourself how hard so many humans have to struggle to survive, and yet you have so much and are ready to just give up and die.
    Damn, assholes like you really piss me off!

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    • That was really uncalled for. Obviously people with depression understand that. And we feel really guilty all the time for feeling this way but you act like it's something we can control.You're telling us not to be sad because someone out their has it worse, that's like telling someone you can't be happy because someone out their has a better life..

      And btw, you never know what someone is going through. How do you know this person is spoiled or has a really good life? Do you even know where they are from? Come on dude. Think before you speak. Someone is asking for help and you don't have to be rude.

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      • Well, let's see. Obviously this person has some means of accessing the internet, right? The value of that alone would feed a family for quite some time. I would also have to conclude the OP has someplace to get out of he weather and I'm hoping clothes that are cleanish. I'd even guess the OP has had a meal in the last few hours and enough clean water to drink whenever it damn well pleases, wouldn't you?
        Just those things alone are more than most of the world has available and yet this little piss ant would let it's life go just because it's a little depressed?
        I wonder if all those starving and fighting to survive are a little depressed? They are probably way too busy trying to survive, to be depressed.
        Mope, not uncalled for; a dose of reality. Time for the OP to be thankful for the life it has and be overjoyed it wasn't born in Syria, Nigeria, Somalia or any one of several dozen other hell holes where people fight to survive in every single day, on this planet.
        Your attitude only coddles the OP, making it believe it's OK to act like a spoiled, entitled bitch.

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        • Maybe they're at a library? Maybe they're at school. Maybe they get bullied everyday. Or are dealing with some type of abuse.. And maybe you're right maybe this person is rich or famous and comes from a good family. But even people with money still are able to have feelings. What you don't understand is that depression is a mental disorder. If it's not caused by a certain triggered event than it has to do with chemical imbalances in the brain. That's like telling someone with schizophrenia not to hallucinate.. You should really do your homework before you judge someone. You seem to think that people with depression can just choose to be happy which is very irritating because I've struggled with depression for sometime now and if "just be happy" was the answer I would definitely choose that. And I'm pretty sure if just being happy solved the problem then doctors would not have medication and therapy to help people with depression. It has nothing to do with being spoiled.

          I really suggest that you take a psychology class in order to learn more about this. If you want I can link you to some good websites that will help you learn more about this and maybe you wont be so judgmental. I think more people need to learn about this because it's not a topic that's truly discussed openly, and people are afraid to tell someone how they feel because people like you will judge them. Just please try to be more nice and keep negative opinions to yourself.

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          • I absolutely LOVE all your assumptions. You assume in 68 years I've never been depressed? You assume, even though you have no reason to do so, that I do not have a degree in psychology. You assume that the doctors have all the answers and that most are something more than pill pushers that take the easy way out and push pills rather than find the problems. And most distressing, you assume anybody other than the person with depression can actually do anything about their depression.
            Why is it that those who can afford food, water, a roof over their heads and the basic necessities of life are the only ones bitching and moaning about how terrible their lives are? The only ones convinced that life is not worth living and that it's all because mommy and daddy screwed them up.
            Take your fucking links and shove them up your middle class, well fed, clothed, sheltered ass and stop trying to prove a point that doesn't exist.

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            • I can most certainly tell you have NOT majored in psychology because you're not educated at all on the subject. And if you truly were depressed at some point in your life than you wouldn't be hard on this person because you know how hard it was for yourself to go through. And you're saying that people who don't have food or water or anything don't complain? Are you fucking dumb.. of course they do. When i was younger my mom raised me by herself. We lived in a shitty apartment and most of the time she would go hungry just so i could have food. I've seen her cry herself to sleep. Obviously now i have a good life. I am thankful for everything that i have. That doesn't change the fact that there is a fucking chemical imbalance in my brain. Therapy is there to help find your problems but if there are no traumatic events like i said there's a chemical imbalance. Just like your body can get sick (kidney, liver etc) your brain can too. And if you took psychology or "majored" in it like you say then you would obviously know that. What you're referring to is depression caused by a dramatic life change or event. Not chronic depression that's caused by a fault in serotonin reuptake in the brain. And that's why it's good to see a doctor. Because if it is chronic and it's left untreated it will only get worse and can be very hard to treat later on.
              And as far as doctors have all the answers, they don't they are still researching depression as we speak. But They know a lot more on the subject than your ass does.

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    • That's NOT what he/she said at all.

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  • I've heard said, "Death is our reward for living." Although death terrifies most...sometimes.. we all get weary of this test.

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  • i sometimes have this too. but then i think of poeple close to me who have died and the mourning i have been (and am going) through. and i don't want to inflict that on people close to me if i died. i dont know what your relationships are with other people, but if you died, there are people that would be devestated. hope that makes sense.

    imo, its good to not fear dying because dying is a natural part of life - there are people that live in total fear of dying. we hsouldn't get hung up on something so natural

    so you should do something extreme like skydiving or something because your fearless :) but yeah, you only have one shot at this world, so do what the fuck you want with it while you're here. and i think anything would be more interesting then lying dead in the ground somewhere

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  • I guess someone misunderstood what I said. I have no intention of giving up and killing myself just because I have fucking depression, a condition that is real. I thought I already said that I am not suicidal. I am not taking life for granted and saying that I don't give a fuck about other people dying because I do. Having depression doesn't mean that I don't care about other people. I only said that 'I' don't fear death if it is to come to me now, if something were to happen say I've had a vehicular accident or I died in my sleep, whatever causes that I did not intentionally inflict upon myself, I accept it. It doesn't mean that I actually want to die right now or that I'm not willing to fight for my life in such cases. I'm just not bothered by the idea of dying at any moment unlike some people who have fears in it.

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  • Î have kind of the opposite "problem" here... I always thought of death as a non terrifying thing and didn't really care about it...

    But since over a year now I'm having problems with panic attacks and times of not feeling well I really don't want to die yet I have the feeling I will :/

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  • I have depression and what i've learned is that depression doesn't mean "I WANT TO KILL MYSELF" it's an unpleasant feeling, feeling of worthlessness, not caring about things you should, feeling stuck, and physical changes (gaining/ losing weight, crying blablalbalbla) Somedays I'm awesome and others I'm not. try to talk to someone about it. Or do you're own research you can learn alot.

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    • Yes I know what depression is and what it feels like. Feelings of worthlessness, hopelessness and helplessness... it's like something foreboding, dark and heavy is pressing down on you and you can't get back up, you just don't want to do anything to get it off of you.

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