Thank you for sharing about your life, sometimes it's not easy to say things like this, but sometimes it does help to get it off your chest. I hope for you it was the latter.
We all go through hardships, and sometimes it seems like some of us have to experience more than others, but it's not often the case. Everybody has their story. The overall outcome of these sorts of things is what we choose to make of it. To allow yourself to feel like a victim, to feel like it's "not fair", and to wallow in self-pity... is to give yourself a fate even worse than death. I'm certainly not trying to imply that's what you do, but I think it's good to continue your writing / talking like this to let it come out so it doesn't linger within you and begin to grow rotten.
A lot of what you said makes it seem like you're 100% certain of what the future holds. Could it be possible that maybe that's not entirely the case? I'm willing to bet that your future as you see it now, and what will actually happen, will be very different. You may not always be on so many medications. Be thankful you even have functioning sex organs. (I for one will never give birth to my own child) Also, of course at your age having your own child 24/7 would be too stressful. It's good that you recognize that, too many unprepared parents have children at too young an age these days. That being said, I wonder how you will feel about having a kid around 24/7 in another 10 years or so?
You can think whatever you like about love, but as long as you don't violently push away every person you meet - trust me, love WILL find you. You probably won't even be expecting it. It usually comes when we're not actively seeking it out, anyway, it's tricky like that.
I didn't mean to take away the validity of the pain you have felt so far. I believe you have, everyone has, at any age. All I meant to say is... life is so much more than your memory of being a kid, then a teenager, then a tiny handful of years. Whatever your experiences are now, keep in mind what lies ahead of you is the VAST majority of your life, especially once you consider the time it took to reach intellectual maturity. What is to follow will put this short, short time you have right now into a whole new perspective. It will be like looking at things through a whole new lens, after you've gone out and lived your life and discovered who you are.
Have you ever had a memory of being a tiny kid and thinking a certain slide / monkey bars / diving board was the HUGEST thing in the world, and gone back years later and realized just how small it was? It's kind of like that. Hang in there, the best is yet to come.
Is it normal that I like to write poems like this one?
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Thank you for sharing about your life, sometimes it's not easy to say things like this, but sometimes it does help to get it off your chest. I hope for you it was the latter.
We all go through hardships, and sometimes it seems like some of us have to experience more than others, but it's not often the case. Everybody has their story. The overall outcome of these sorts of things is what we choose to make of it. To allow yourself to feel like a victim, to feel like it's "not fair", and to wallow in self-pity... is to give yourself a fate even worse than death. I'm certainly not trying to imply that's what you do, but I think it's good to continue your writing / talking like this to let it come out so it doesn't linger within you and begin to grow rotten.
A lot of what you said makes it seem like you're 100% certain of what the future holds. Could it be possible that maybe that's not entirely the case? I'm willing to bet that your future as you see it now, and what will actually happen, will be very different. You may not always be on so many medications. Be thankful you even have functioning sex organs. (I for one will never give birth to my own child) Also, of course at your age having your own child 24/7 would be too stressful. It's good that you recognize that, too many unprepared parents have children at too young an age these days. That being said, I wonder how you will feel about having a kid around 24/7 in another 10 years or so?
You can think whatever you like about love, but as long as you don't violently push away every person you meet - trust me, love WILL find you. You probably won't even be expecting it. It usually comes when we're not actively seeking it out, anyway, it's tricky like that.
I didn't mean to take away the validity of the pain you have felt so far. I believe you have, everyone has, at any age. All I meant to say is... life is so much more than your memory of being a kid, then a teenager, then a tiny handful of years. Whatever your experiences are now, keep in mind what lies ahead of you is the VAST majority of your life, especially once you consider the time it took to reach intellectual maturity. What is to follow will put this short, short time you have right now into a whole new perspective. It will be like looking at things through a whole new lens, after you've gone out and lived your life and discovered who you are.
Have you ever had a memory of being a tiny kid and thinking a certain slide / monkey bars / diving board was the HUGEST thing in the world, and gone back years later and realized just how small it was? It's kind of like that. Hang in there, the best is yet to come.