Is it normal that i like to feel my bones?
I'm not a skinny girl, I'm a size 14. I feel fat and gross and revolting and like I'm not even worth the love and attention my fiance gives me. So, with my body image issues, sometimes if I roll over in bed and accidentally graze my hip bone or collar bone with my hand I'll stop and try to feel every bone I can. Ribs, collar bones, hip bones, wrists, ankles... It makes me feel smaller. I'll dig my fingers into my body to feel them even past when it starts to hurt. "If I can feel my bones then I can't be too massive" is I guess where my head goes. Is it normal to do that?