Is it normal that i like being a clown?
Hi, since I was young, I secretly liked dressing up as a Clown. I like the silly and stupid look of a clown. As I was 15 years old, I bought my first pair of professional clown shoes, nose and makeup. Since them I like to transform myself into a goofy clown. I keep it a pretty good secret, so nobody in my family knows about this. Sometimes I went out in full makeup and walking down the streets, interacting with people and let them laugh about me. Sometimes I let people throw cream pies in my face. Do I like being humiliated? Now I am 20 years old and I spend over 300$ on clown stuff. Now I have my own Youtube channel and I like makeing videos of me in makeup.
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC0p12-imjrYRInQOFvqcRcw/videos?view_as=subscriber