I literally do this every day. I imagine that people I know, my past teachers or bullies usually, are sitting at some sort of TV, watching me as I go throughout my day. It's like I'm a kind of reality show. I try to impress them, as you mentioned, trying to physically convey my emotions and overacting routine activities. I even imagine a soundtrack of sorts, overlaying my everyday activities. I imagine the reactions of my "viewers". I even become increasingly frustrated as I "mess up" by spilling something, saying something awkward, or tripping over something. I often feel the need to "start over", like I'm rewinding my imagination so that my strange audience begins watching me immediately after the "mistake". I know friends who have randomly admitted doing similar things, but to this extent? I have no idea. I'm honestly glad to know I'm not alone in doing it.
Is it normal that I imagine that people are observing me?
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I literally do this every day. I imagine that people I know, my past teachers or bullies usually, are sitting at some sort of TV, watching me as I go throughout my day. It's like I'm a kind of reality show. I try to impress them, as you mentioned, trying to physically convey my emotions and overacting routine activities. I even imagine a soundtrack of sorts, overlaying my everyday activities. I imagine the reactions of my "viewers". I even become increasingly frustrated as I "mess up" by spilling something, saying something awkward, or tripping over something. I often feel the need to "start over", like I'm rewinding my imagination so that my strange audience begins watching me immediately after the "mistake". I know friends who have randomly admitted doing similar things, but to this extent? I have no idea. I'm honestly glad to know I'm not alone in doing it.