Is it normal that I hide my tendencies from therapists?

Look honey. I know what your going through. I see psychiatrists I see therapists. They have helped me because I'm honest. Life ain't easy especially for people like you and me. Im depressed. I spent two full years day in and day out constantly depressed. It sucks. I have crippling anxiety. That sucks worse then the depression I think. I hallucinate have heard voices so loud I've crushed my head between my hands fell to my knees screaming but this ain't time for my story. Im just saying I've been there and I got tired of it. Life ain't worth living like that. I got suicidal. I tried it. Im still here thank god and that was the wake up I needed. I started being honest cause its the only way to get better. Yes I got locked up for a bit. Im not going to sugar coat it. It fucking sucked. I was only there for a couple weeks cause for the most part I cooperated. They found a good Med for me and let me out. And you know what? Life got bearable. It was not a miracle cure it took years of monitoring me by going to psychs and therapists and being honest! Ill say it again you will not get better without honesty.my psych and therapists know me very well now. They know I know my limits. Ill_ tell them if I need a hospital because id rather sacrifice a week locked in a hospital then live in the torture chamber my mind can be at times. Most of all I want to stress mental wings at hospitals are not by any means fun but they are not as terrible as you might be thinking. They are there to help you. Im so sorry. So so sorry your going through such hell. Your not alone. It can get better but you gotta tell the truth. Your choice now what you want out of life. Not trying to sound like a know it all jerk here or tell you what to do. I guess you just reminded me of me. I know your fear. Its scary shit. But in the end you will get better with help. If you have any questions or just want to talk with a fellow Nutter you can message me anytime.