Is it normal that i have these sexual fantasies?
I'm a 23 year old male virgin who spends at least two hours everyday jacking off to porn. My sexually frustrated state effectively means that I can get nothing done until I jack off to my heart's content on a daily basis. But once my state of sexual arousal has worn off, I'm reminded of the fact that I'm still the loser who all the other dudes used to pick on because he'd never had intercourse with a woman. Further complicating my misery is the fact that I'm uttery terrifed of women, having had the misfortune to have worked under an especially nasty one a couple of years ago. That means actually trying to approach women is a strict no for me. In fact,I've come to realise that most women inspire more fear in men than a snake would. But it dosen't end there. As my desire to get sexually intimate with another human gets increasingly more intense, I find myself gradually begining to project my sexual desires on attractive men that I see. There have even been times when I envy those jihadi suicide bombers who blow themselves up for the 70 virgins in Paradise that they've been promised. Being on the verge of enjoying those gorgeous women waiting for one in heaven must make the moment of detonation itself feel like sexual release, no?