Is it normal that i have standards for lesbians?
This is for the lesbians out there. I have recently ended a relationship of 8 months. Long story short, I moved out of state for her, so we could close the gap between us. We had some issues. We were not perfect. However, we thought that we could work things out. The thing is, she had habits that were a complete turn off such as a ridiculous low self-esteem that prompted her to constantly require physical and emotional attention from me. If I was not praising her, or loving on her 24/7 - then that translated to me not being in love with her. She had a dog that she didn't properly train. We never had a quiet night together, or a good night sleep, or good sex (because the dog would cry, wimper, and scratch the bed the entire time). If I corrected the dog or suggested training (even offered to pay) she would yell at me for not accepting her as she is. Plus, she was messy, as in borderline hoarder messy. Finally, she would tell me to do one thing, then say she never said it. None of these things or our communication improved by me moving. I never felt heard. So we broke up. In a week, she was already dating someone else. In a month, she updated her FB profile to "in a relationship".
The thing is, I find myself no longer attracted to lesbians. I feel that many have untreated mental issues, have pets that they choose over their partners, or force their partners to accept as is, are often too political or angsty, often lack ambition, and often times are not nearly as attractive as straight women.
Is it wrong that I have standards for lesbians? Is it wrong that I want to meet a woman who deals with her demons, who wants more for herself, who isn't afraid of being alone until the right person comes around, who is clean/tidy, and is attractive? As in - no half shaved head, tattoos, etc...just clean. I hate the fact that I envy straight men. I look at their girlfriends, and these women are put together. Whereas the lesbian community is too busy excusing crazy behavior for freedom from heteronormative standards.