Is it normal that i have more aquaintances than friends?

I recently graduated from college and it occurs to me more and more everyday that I have more acquaintances than true friends.
I always knew that I never really had a ton of friends. I unfortunately have been a sufferer of trichotillomania since about the sixth grade and I think this hindered my ability greatly to meet people more and more as I grew older. Now that i have finally started to conquer it.. I still find myself alone and friendless.
I was the girl who met her first serious boyfriend in high school. We were inseparable, best friends and lovers.I then continued to date him five years thereafter only to get my heart stomped on. Maybe it was my fault I didn't have any friends through that time because I was more of a relationship girl and still am? But the more and more I think about it.. why can't you have both? I find myself jealous of all the girls that have girl nights with wine and book readings .. trips to the mall with a movie at my place afterwards. I constantly find myself looking aimlessly through my list of contacts in my phone, perhaps hoping more names would magically appear with numbers next to them at which they can be reached.
I don't find myself to be ugly by any means, no do I have fear that I am socially inept, shy, or way too self concious. So what am I doing wrong? I could right on and on about this. I am and will continue to be until further notice...

Sincerely,
Frustrated.

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  • right. well sometimes it feels like there arent any there at all :/

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