Is it normal that i hate the gift my best friends gave me?
SO, I've been learning to play guitar using my brother's and I've gotten pretty good at it. I've been wanting to have my own but I didn't have enough money so I've been WORKING MY ASS OFF saving up money to buy my own FINE, REAL guitar that would stay with me for a LONG, LONG TIME. a guitar that I could call 'my baby'. of course my best friends know this particular desire of mine to have that kind of guitar.
I have four best friends, and three of them are out of town. one of them also plays guitar and owns a cool guitar herself. today, the one friend in the same town with me said that she wanted to meet me in our usual hang out spot so of crs I went.
guess what, she fucking presented a guitar case n I was speechless. I opened the case n took out the guitar and I wanted to fuckin CRY right that instant. OH MY GOD. the guitar is... POORLY MADE. the strings are in bad quality n the wood is rough, the paint is fading n the pattern is so lame. the size isn't even right and it's SO NOT ME.
she said she and my other three friends combined their money to buy the guitar so I asked whether she discussed it with my friend who plays guitar and she said NO. I asked again if she asked the shopkeeper to recommend her what to buy and again she said, NO.
I FELT SO FUCKING INSULTED.
it was like as if she was saying 'you want guitar, so I give u one."
WELL EXCUSE ME if I want ANY guitar, I would've bought it A VERY LONG TIME AGO n I wouldn't have to save up to the point that I starve myself!!!
even my brother (who is a PRO guitar player) was so frustrated when he helped me setting up the right keys earlier and I just fuckin HELD BACK MY TEARS. the quality is THAT bad.
I know my friend was just being thoughtful n gave me what I want but I can't help to think this way.
I mean, if they didn't have enough money, they didn't have to force it, for God's sake! I don't need gifts that much, I'm happy just be being with them n hang out together.
so my HARD-EARNED savings will go to waste because I can't even buy a new guitar because of course my friends would expect me to bring this poor excuse of a guitar to our get-togethers.
n now I feel like a VERY horrible person. I should be grateful, but I'm not. I'M NOT. is it normal??????