Is it normal that i get homicidal thoughts?

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So I've already been diagnosed with BPD (borderline personality disorder) Its not schizophrenia, dont be ignorant. If you want a quick description, Google it. Anyways, I also have rage issues and I can get pretty violent when I'm really pissed. But lately it doesnt take much to make me angry; when someone does something that only slightly irritates me, I start fantasizing about hurting that person. Like really hurting that person. I think of ways to kill them slowly and painfully. I even wrote a poem about five different ways to kill this one girl that I got in an argument with. I try to stop the thoughts by distracting myself with something else, but its hard because once the thought enters my head its really hard to get rid of it. Its almost as if my brain switches gears and I can only think of causing as much physical harm to that person as possible.
Now I understand right from wrong and I understand there are consequences to my actions and I would NEVER carry these actions out on somebody...I dont even like killing insects. But it scares me that my mind goes to these extremes...I've been to counseling and most of the psychologists say its teen angst. That answer would work for me, if I was still a teenager. (Im 24) So long story short I'm just trying to figure out if I'm the only one who has an overactive imagination and thinks this way.
I would really appreciate thoughtful intelligent feedback...calling me a crazy bitch doesnt help and your not as funny as you think you are. :)

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  • mcdoodlebutts
    12 years ago

    its normal for someone with BPD. However, as a social services professional, I would definitely suggest continuing therapy/counseling to learn coping skills to deal with those thoughts.

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  • Sithis
    11 years ago

    You are certainly not alone.i just recently started going to therapy for my Homicidal fantasies. two questions though. Do you only fantasize when you have been mistreated by someone or do you have them without cause? Secondly do you actually FEEL that it is wrong or just know it is?

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  • SEWnanist23
    12 years ago

    Thoughts are Okay but talk and action can be rather illegal.

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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago

    Alot of people get homocidal thoughts when they're angry, it's only natural that you think about these things when you're angry. It would of been more abnormal if you thought about these things when you aren't angry.

    Your problem would be your easy temper, not the homocidal thoughts.

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