Is it normal that i finger my cousin and touched her boobs
it was happen when i were 11-12yr. and she's 15-16 i think i was a mayor/king alike in our house my cousin's and aunt and uncle was living into my moms house and from that i age i might say i truly child not just child im not thinking at all jerking damning i even get kicked out in school and then my grandma die exactly when i was have an internet and watching hentai and porn so im thinking of doing it when my cousin sleep in my room the way my house was like a apartment and in my place or house is just me and i hav feared with dark area im not fooling i truly hav thats why i requested for my cousin to go on my house then here she go sleeping and then i try fingering her pushing my penis to her underwear and then touching her but i never do the only thing i thought i do that bad was a three finger inserted to her i think it was butt or vagina and when i feel something real soft i try touching it and rubbing it and then i inserted my finger there too for about 18 days i doing this i feel pretty bad to what i have done so i promise not to watch porn,sex vid,sex pic and any malicious thing to do like MASTURBATING and not having relationship for till im 21 im 15 now then here it comes i feel like im gay thinking malicious on boys and girls it was truly getting to me that i rather think of malicious thing other than this it was yukkkkkkkk!!! gay but i promise and thinking of myself a man that doesnt disobey hia promise thats my way.....but this dam sychological or brain bullsh** is truly getting to me pls tell me what to be done.