Don't read if you don't want. I know you say don't answer but I want to figure out for myself.
Thank you also for these sweet things you say to me :)
I don't know if I find the "why" I never thought possible since its so different than regular sex, I mean its not even sex lol. But would be very cool to know. I agree with this I don't like the word fetish either. I prefer just say ball punching, or threatening.
It comes and goes. For a while I thought it was bad. And I meet a girl online like you who wants to talk about it with me, but she also liked this. And she pushed me to accept as OK and after this much better.
Sometimes I feel bad about myself and this in combination with female domination I think is unhealthy because I really feel invaluable and it is no longer the fantasy of a woman who doesn't care how men feel.
It also can be bad when I am seeing woman this way I get so turned on it is hard to be her friend. I wonder sometimes if I need open relationship with one wife and one mistress like this. I don't know if a girl I love can also be so cruel to me, and I can switch how I think about her back and forth.
Its hard also really just because it can feel like its not good for my body, and maybe my confidence. It isnt perfect.
For the positives though it is the best feeling in the world. A woman saying "I'm gonna punch you in the balls to me" like 100x better than sex 😂
So if I know I am seeing a girl who does this yes I can wake up and be excited to get threatened.
Sorry I did not think it could go this long. To be honest the high I get is so intense I can use this like a drug if I want to distract myself. Like if I don't have a job and don't want to be worried I think about women being dominant and am in fantasy all day.
So this can be a related problem.
But also it can be so positive if I am in a good place and still enjoying.
There is so much more to say I realize but I will for now stop here unless you have more questions. I fully trust you now and happy to give you complete understanding of your curiosity :)
Is it normal that I feel very uncomfortable about looking good?
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Don't read if you don't want. I know you say don't answer but I want to figure out for myself.
Thank you also for these sweet things you say to me :)
I don't know if I find the "why" I never thought possible since its so different than regular sex, I mean its not even sex lol. But would be very cool to know. I agree with this I don't like the word fetish either. I prefer just say ball punching, or threatening.
It comes and goes. For a while I thought it was bad. And I meet a girl online like you who wants to talk about it with me, but she also liked this. And she pushed me to accept as OK and after this much better.
Sometimes I feel bad about myself and this in combination with female domination I think is unhealthy because I really feel invaluable and it is no longer the fantasy of a woman who doesn't care how men feel.
It also can be bad when I am seeing woman this way I get so turned on it is hard to be her friend. I wonder sometimes if I need open relationship with one wife and one mistress like this. I don't know if a girl I love can also be so cruel to me, and I can switch how I think about her back and forth.
Its hard also really just because it can feel like its not good for my body, and maybe my confidence. It isnt perfect.
For the positives though it is the best feeling in the world. A woman saying "I'm gonna punch you in the balls to me" like 100x better than sex 😂
So if I know I am seeing a girl who does this yes I can wake up and be excited to get threatened.
Sorry I did not think it could go this long. To be honest the high I get is so intense I can use this like a drug if I want to distract myself. Like if I don't have a job and don't want to be worried I think about women being dominant and am in fantasy all day.
So this can be a related problem.
But also it can be so positive if I am in a good place and still enjoying.
There is so much more to say I realize but I will for now stop here unless you have more questions. I fully trust you now and happy to give you complete understanding of your curiosity :)