Is it normal that i feel this way?
This problem started when I started middle school. See, I was a shy, weak, puny, and small kid, and still am kind of. So because of that, I was bullied. Now, many people who get bullied kill themselves, but I was different. I wanted to kill the bullies instead.
I could fight my bullies or ignore them or tell someone, but my bullies are not normal bullies. They often times act gangster, or ghetto and are from trashy neighborhoods.(seriously, houses near the school(s) are worse than Detroit 'hoods.) One, I'm too weak to fight them.(I don't back out of standing up for myself, but I'm still unable to fight.) Two, you smart people should know why ignoring won't help. Three, you tell on them, you will be known as a snitch that will get stitches.
My bullying was bad, some people have had it worse, but still. After being bullied, my whole view changed. I hated society and the human race. I hated myself and others. I deserve to suffer because I'm a weak degenerate for society. I want to become a serial killer and end the human race. Everything about the human race is terrible. The stupidiy, the negativity, etc. All the good humans suffer. My mindset is somewhat like Anakin Skywalker's. Is this normal that I feel this way?