IIN that i fear i may never work again thus my soul being destroyed

I'm quite surprised you're not on Disability Living Allowance, myself (Unless you are and you've not mentioned it already).

Even if your eyes are affected, I believe you could still do dictations and touch-type using a Braille/specially adapted keyboard (I assume), maybe interpret for blind-deaf people, volunteer in a charity shop
I sometimes look for over 4 hours in a day.

I've been on JSA for 3 months. I agree that some of the training courses teach a grandma to suck eggs, but they're there and so is the financial support.

Volunteering is a great idea and many employers admire it as it shows you're willing to do sometihng off your own back.
The charity shop Scope is great for taking on volunteers with a disability, so I've heard.

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I "only" have mild Asperger's Syndrome and happen to wear glasses, but I feel for you. There are many JSA workers who are - if anything - in even worse positions than us.
Although she is gone now, I think Karen Sherlock is very inspiring. She had a vitamin deficiency, double incontinence and at least one or two other conditions, but battled to get the right support for her right up to her death in June.
http://diaryofabenefitscrounger.blogspot.co.uk/2012/06/rip-karen-sherlock.html

I couldn't even dream of having that strength, but I want to fight against ATOS, Workfare and all the shitty disability discrimination and I know I'm not the only one.

*shakes head sadly*