Is it normal that i dont care about anything...?

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Ok, this is my background:

Born in peru, then moved to the us when i was 14. Finished highschool with a 3.8. Now I am back in Peru studying to become a comercial pilot...

I was undocumented and realized that all my hard work was in vain by the end of 11th grade (all my dreams were shattered). 12th grade, I didnt care about anything except getting by (behaving and getting good grades).
I felt so disappointed at my graduation and couldnt smile...

I used to be a Catholic then Christian. I believe in Ancient Aliens and that there is a God but not as portrayed in any religion.

I live in my parents' apartment and they send me money every month. All I have to worry about is study and paying the bills.

Now, I havent had a flight in 2 months and I am at the last stage of getting my Private Pilot's license.
My school doesnt care about their students. If I dont call them, they act as if nothing happened and the result is 2 months of vacation lol.

I dont care if anyone died except for my 2 brothers and parents. I dont care about having friends. I feel like I dont need friends or girlfriend and stay in my apartment all day playing videogames or on my laptop.
I am 20 and I know I have plenty of time to change my life: getting in shape, partying, sex, etc.
My plan is to survive: finish my studies as slow as possible and playing as long as possible.
I eat unhealthy foods, then when I feel weird I start eating vegetables/fruits and the cycle repeats.

Finally, I was really motivated a couple of times, but my school never called when they were supposed to, to tell me about any flights so I lost interest and had 1-2 months of vacation (at first I would call everyday for weeks until they programmed me).
I feel like I dont belong anywhere. Always trying to adapt to different peoples due to moving a lot.
That is my life...

My vision is to live isolated from my family in peace.

PS: since I was/am undocumented I decided to leave everything behind and become a pilot in Peru and hopefully get a Visa.

My parents messed up my life by bringing me to the US without papers and now me taking these mini vacations feels not wrong but not a big deal beacuse i intend to finish what i started. I've never failed a test and have always passed everything with high scores so they know.
I always have done things thinking that i "have to" do them and this is just one of them...

Thank you.

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  • wigsplitz
    12 years ago | pl

    To me you just sound lazy and blame everything on everyone but yourself.

    You say you KNOW your school is unreliable, and yet you blame them for not calling you?? Why not call them?? But you'd rather NOT call them because you're lazy and would rather fuck around. So blame the school. It's easier.

    You blame your parents for coming to the US....yet it gave you experiences and opportunity. If they had stayed in Peru, you'd probably blame them for that too.

    You claim to not want friends, but I doubt that's true. It's probably part because you're too lazy and part because of how you act. Nobody WANTS to be around you, so in defense you "claim" to not want friends...

    I don't think there's anything abnormal about you, that stuff is quite typical. I can't really tell you what to do about it, go to a counselor. That's just my opinion based on what you wrote. It just has typical spoiled, lazy, blameless brat written all over it.

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    • Green_Guy
      12 years ago | pl

      if you read it properly he says he calls them for weeks everyday before he even gets a flight.

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  • bnrslyr
    12 years ago | pl

    You sound like a very intelligent 20 year old, Im 22 and can relate to you a lot, but please do not sit on your ass. Time seems to go by faster the older you get, and pretty soon you will be 30 years old and still playing video games. Meet people, get a job, find interesting things out there to do, help people when you can. I know you say you don't give a shit, but thats because you are just playing video games all day and hoping that you can get your flying license soon, I wouldn't give a shit either if I was in your perspective. As soon as you get out there you will notice that you do care, if you didn't care then that would mean you are a sociopath, 99.9% of people who truly do not care are sociopaths, but that would also mean that you are incredibly arrogant, which would mean that you would think nothing is wrong with you in the first place, but since you posted on IIN, then that leads me to believe that you are concerned and know you have a problem which means you are normal (not a sociopath), and that you just need to get out there and do something, much like priming a pump or when you would get a push from your father when trying to learn to ride a bicycle. Once you get out there the rest will follow. Ill pray for you. BTW I believe in ancient aliens too and of course God :)

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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago | pl

    i agree with wigsplitz just finish soon as you can ring them all the time

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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago | pl

    Why is it that people make stories and polls with the title saying "Is It NormalI dont care about anything" and then when you actualy read the discription they show that they care the same way the average human does. You obviously do care. Stop with the misleading titles.

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  • lisac1919
    11 years ago | pl

    i am 20 and also similar to you in my lifestyle of doing nothing all day and also moving around a lot.

    i am trying force myself to do things even that i dont want to. talk to people and do at least one chore or activity a day. it is the worst when you feel like failure and so keep repeating your bad habits and just get buried deeper and deeper in your hole. be more positive and start digging yourself out. doing all that work for your career is one step already in a great direction.

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  • FourAMandstillgoin
    11 years ago | pl

    You sound like your aboht to fall into depression D=

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  • iintolovethissite
    12 years ago | pl

    i did a iin question like this and i was bout to say i feel the same way but i feel ur lazy i feel ur not even trying you dont want to be interested in anything, i think you need to get of ur fat ass eat healthy work out.

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  • Queeny
    12 years ago | pl

    I'm not quite sure what to make of you. My honest opinion, I get a weird give from you...

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