Is it normal that i don't want to forget someone that left me?

Ok, So I was in this relationship for 5 years with someone that I love with everything there is to love someone,one day not long ago she told me she needed to find herself and that she love me but didn't wanted to be in a relationship..and that forever and ever I will be the love her life...mind me my heart was telling me that she liked someone else...I asked her so many times and I got for response that I was crazy, that I was unjust and that I needed professional help, that this other person never crossed her mind, that this person even has a boy friend who she loves a lot...well one night after she left I asked her again..and she got mad at me for the question, telling me that I have to understand that she loves me and only me...and that we had bigger problems to be focusing on crap...next day I found out she was with the girl!! and I told her you could imagine everything I said!!! for my birthday she took me out for dinner and I confronted her with a proof of her lies...and asked her the most crazy questions ever, did she liked it, how was it, etc... she answered all...I then wrote her a letter telling her everything I though about her...and to forget me forever to make believe that I died and that I never ever want to see her or hear from her again, that night she talked to me with all the love and tenderness there is! :( and after that we haven't stopped talking...she told me she repent of what she did, and that she cut all type of contact with this person, they work together by the way...she told me she didn't like it and that she did it to feel how was it with someone else..oh by the way I was her first...now my question is what should I do? Is it normal that I love her even more today than before, that my stupid heart has some weird trust for her that I don't understand, and why the hell I don't want to forget her...but yet I hate myself for loving her and not wanting to let go...she crushed my heart...and when I imagine her doing stuff with this person, I just want to have some power to vanished her the person and me for being so stupid...HELP ME PLEASE so very lost!!! :'( oh and I don't want to hurt her by being harsh...I am so not normal...

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  • If you expect anyone to read that your retarded.

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  • hate to love.
    People just turned you down.
    Just find yourself a great whore to forget it and move on.

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  • i have an inkling (love that word) that this "love" is sherading as the fact that after she was around for so long, and now she isnt you can't deal with the sudden change.

    you may just miss her because she isnt with you but if she was with you, i'm pretty sure you would be fighting with her and such.

    move on, you need to, for your self respect. pick yourself up, dust yourself off and move on. get yourself involved n a new hobby, throw yourself into something but not someone...you're obviously not ready for that.

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  • ok, i did read your story. try to not
    see her as often.
    1)boundaries- she cant just go and do what she did.go out somewhere fun w/out her
    2)act different- get a hair cut, tan, whatever.
    something that makes you look better.
    3)calls- when she calls ask if you can call her later. dont stay talking w/ her for 45 min.

    you gotta make yourself valuable..
    even if you "love" her you gotta be hard to get.she liked the other guy because it was fresh and exciting.

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  • and if a girl says "she loves you but doesn't want a relationship" she is feeding you some well known bullshit. who the hell wouldn't want to be in a relationship with someone they love? exactly. she's over you dude. she moved on. stop kidding yourself.

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  • oh no. just another sad pathetic infatuation story. you need to move on dude.

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