Is it normal that i don't want to forget someone that left me?
Ok, So I was in this relationship for 5 years with someone that I love with everything there is to love someone,one day not long ago she told me she needed to find herself and that she love me but didn't wanted to be in a relationship..and that forever and ever I will be the love her life...mind me my heart was telling me that she liked someone else...I asked her so many times and I got for response that I was crazy, that I was unjust and that I needed professional help, that this other person never crossed her mind, that this person even has a boy friend who she loves a lot...well one night after she left I asked her again..and she got mad at me for the question, telling me that I have to understand that she loves me and only me...and that we had bigger problems to be focusing on crap...next day I found out she was with the girl!! and I told her you could imagine everything I said!!! for my birthday she took me out for dinner and I confronted her with a proof of her lies...and asked her the most crazy questions ever, did she liked it, how was it, etc... she answered all...I then wrote her a letter telling her everything I though about her...and to forget me forever to make believe that I died and that I never ever want to see her or hear from her again, that night she talked to me with all the love and tenderness there is! :( and after that we haven't stopped talking...she told me she repent of what she did, and that she cut all type of contact with this person, they work together by the way...she told me she didn't like it and that she did it to feel how was it with someone else..oh by the way I was her first...now my question is what should I do? Is it normal that I love her even more today than before, that my stupid heart has some weird trust for her that I don't understand, and why the hell I don't want to forget her...but yet I hate myself for loving her and not wanting to let go...she crushed my heart...and when I imagine her doing stuff with this person, I just want to have some power to vanished her the person and me for being so stupid...HELP ME PLEASE so very lost!!! :'( oh and I don't want to hurt her by being harsh...I am so not normal...
Thank you