Is it normal that i don't want to be catholic?
My parents were old when they had me but because I'm an only child and they worked they're whole lives they put me in a Catholic school when I was in second grade. That school sucked. We learn religion, we had no math, and the kids were all really mean. How many really good friends did I have before I moved? 2. And one was not from my school. So I moved to another state and still have problems making friends. I'm shy but at least people are friendly here. I go to a private school here too that (and this will surprise you) actually teaches! I love my school though others hate it and I am extremely grateful that my parents still sacrifice to give me the best education possible. The only problem? I hate being catholic. I learned a few years ago that I was conceived through IVF and, according to the Church, I should not be alive. Also through an actual religion class I learned many teachings that I saw were unfair and all in all redundant. For instance, you should marry another catholic or you have to have children or you shouldn't get married. There was once a catholic deacon who was a permanent deacon and he got married and got excommunicated!
I can't talk about religion in my house. It usually winds up in a fight with mom threatening to pull me out of my private school. I love my school to death and would do anything to stay there. So when we go to church I don't complain and I sing and listen. I take a huge role in the youth group and parish council to show my mom that it was just hormones or something.
I believe in God and Jesus, just not the extra things that the catholic church teaches. I pray every night too and I am really faithful. I really want to convert to a protestant religion when I get older because I don't see myself in a catholic church when I move out.
Thanks sosososo much for reading. I know it was long but I know you can help me :)