Is it normal that i don't want to be alive?
I mean, I don't want to commit suicide or anything but I don't see any real value in being alive. You're born without your consent, go to school, go to work, be an old bum for a while and die, I don't see that as an experience I'd like to partake in so I'd prefer to stay out of it. There are things that make me happy to be here, but there's always this ideia on the back of my head that, if I was dead, liking or disliking these things wouldn't mean anything. I was fine before I was born and I'm sure I'll be fine after I die. I'd just like to be given the choice, you get so many choices but not the one that matters, "Which degree are you going to take?", "What job are you going to do?", "What house are you gonna buy?", but never "Do you want to be alive?", they ask the other questions like everyone would naturally want those things. I wasn't asked if I wanted to go to school, if I wanted a job, if I wanted a house, I wasn't asked if I wanted to waste up to 100 years of my life doing things I don't want to do. Am I depressed? I don't think so. I'm not saddened by the life I've been given, I'm disappointed that I didn't have a choice in the matter!