Is it normal that i don't want anyone to survive cancer?

How unfortunate. The feeling is likely normal, however I wouldn't publicise that opinion.
You suffered a great loss, but keep in mind the cancer patients you hate have families grieving too.

I'm sorry you lost your mother, but it seems that you took the wrong lesson. What you hated was her suffering, and instead of working to diminish suffering, you're actively wishing it into being. You have become what is known as a "hater", please consider moving in a new direction.

I'm sorry you feel that way. Overwhelming grief can turn to bitterness. You have suffered and you cry out for others to suffer as you have, that in that suffering and spreading the pain you may in some way feel better.

Cancer and other fatal illness are the great equalizers. I recently lost a friend to Lou Gehrigs disease (ALS). The enormous financial resources of our families meant nothing.

I cry as I write this.

I have no answer for you. I can only offer you the hope that in time you will find peace and recover from this terrible episode in your life.

My dad died to years ago because drs removed his cancer (lung cancer) and his body couldnt take it, he almost died they had to intubate him and thanks 2 the negligence of the hosp. he took them out when he woke up he went 19 minutes without oxygen and suffered brain damage so they had to do an emergency thracheostomy. he was so bad that he stayed 8 months in the hosp. he reached a point where he couldnt move his body that was in an weird position, open legs, bent knees, anyway he spent 3 and half years more in the same bed, couldnt eat, talk, move, breath on his own. Nothing. But he was awake he tried to talk and watched tv. I remember one time he tried to yell at me, "me quiero morir" wich is spanish for "i want to die".

I completly understand life is very unfair everytime i think about someone surviving cancer i just get incredibly jealous.
I say normal for the situation.

I hate cancer :@

how sad for you. You probly see others recovering yet you lost your mother and you feel its unfair/ maybe you need grief counselling. i'm sure it couldn't hurt and you might feel some peace from it. good luck to you

I just dont know what to say to you. You make me sad.
My mother died in the year 2000. Suffered like your mother. Last 2 years of her life she lost half her jaw. Ate through a feeding tube. Never to taste food again. The cancer got to her brain. It's just a horrible disease. With doctors intervention she lived for 30 years with cancer. Going in and out of remission. She got to see her grandchildren be born.

Please dont wish death on anybody. You are hurting. It's understandable.

I dont know what else to say......

Yeah, I'm gonna agree with a few of the other posters here.

When others get over cancer, you get angry that your mother didn't, that she suffered and didn't survive. You wound up feeling "Well, why should my mother have suffered more?" instead of "Well, why should people suffer?"

I don't know if I should put normal or not, because I do see what you mean. Even though, I don't think cancer should be killing people. I see how you find it unfair, and so I feel that it is normal for you to feel the way you do. It's all envy though, and it's not good. So, you should probably see a doctor. Think about all of the children who die... Why should they die?