Cutting, I guess how I explain it would be that I feel awful about myself all the time, my social life is destructive of my self esteem, my family life is in a disaster, my emotions are all over the place and I'm unstable and have nobody there for me to talk to and It it emotionally hurts so much.
I have no control over that but I have control of my blade and the control of the pain is intoxicating almost. Its just, I don't feel so helpless because I'm the one that has control. and when you're cutting you can't remember why you hurt so much emotionally anyways.
I'm not saying start because when you start you end up with scars all over you and then you end up not being able to wear what you want, swimming is out of the question, showers are difficult to handle, you wince when someone touches your cutting area and you can't tell them why because then they will think you're a weak nothing. It also adds extra emotional pain after the fact. DON'T EVER START it ruins you more than you were ever ruined before you started
Is it normal that I don't understand cutters?
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Cutting, I guess how I explain it would be that I feel awful about myself all the time, my social life is destructive of my self esteem, my family life is in a disaster, my emotions are all over the place and I'm unstable and have nobody there for me to talk to and It it emotionally hurts so much.
I have no control over that but I have control of my blade and the control of the pain is intoxicating almost. Its just, I don't feel so helpless because I'm the one that has control. and when you're cutting you can't remember why you hurt so much emotionally anyways.
I'm not saying start because when you start you end up with scars all over you and then you end up not being able to wear what you want, swimming is out of the question, showers are difficult to handle, you wince when someone touches your cutting area and you can't tell them why because then they will think you're a weak nothing. It also adds extra emotional pain after the fact. DON'T EVER START it ruins you more than you were ever ruined before you started