I had poor impulse control and always said and did stupid shit. I felt so ashamed of myself and hated myself and yes, my parents did try to beat it out of me and no, it didn't work. Cutting was a form of self-punishment. Basically, if I punished myself for something stupid that I might have done that week, I had the right to forgive myself for my wrongdoing.
I always wore long sleeves, regardless of the weather, because I never showed anyone and nobody knew. I didn't want attention for it. This was until I eventually had to seek medical help due to a series of self-inflicted gashes on my leg becoming sickneningly infected.
Is it normal that I don't understand cutters?
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I did it as a form of self-punishment.
I had poor impulse control and always said and did stupid shit. I felt so ashamed of myself and hated myself and yes, my parents did try to beat it out of me and no, it didn't work. Cutting was a form of self-punishment. Basically, if I punished myself for something stupid that I might have done that week, I had the right to forgive myself for my wrongdoing.
I always wore long sleeves, regardless of the weather, because I never showed anyone and nobody knew. I didn't want attention for it. This was until I eventually had to seek medical help due to a series of self-inflicted gashes on my leg becoming sickneningly infected.