Is it normal that i don't think i'll live to see adulthood (21+)?

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I've always felt like I wouldn't be able to grow up, get married, and have children. Even when I was a child the future was just black.

It's my dream to get married and have children someday. I know I'd love them all to death, but I feel like it's only a dream. I don't know why I feel like I'll die before I reach adulthood. I really want to grow old and watch my children do the same, though.

I don't really know how I think I'll die (perhaps a disease?), but the future seems impossible for me. I don't have any dreams about a job I love or being famous, but I definitely want children.

Every time I think about my future, I still see blackness. When I look at (young) people, I can see what they'll look like when they're older and the general direction their lives may take (nothing is certain, though). If I look in the mirror, I see nothing.

It kind of creeps me out, but does anyone else feel this? Why?

Is It Normal?
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  • [Old Memory]
    11 years ago | pl

    I never thought I would reach 16 but now I'm 22. I never thought I'd get this far but both of you, OP and G35, please don't do anything to either of yourselves.

    It seems like crap, I know but you're not alone and I'm still here as living proof that you can get through anything as long as you're willing to stick your middle finger up at it. Don't let whoever or whatever win.

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  • G35
    11 years ago | pl

    I also have felt this way all my life. Ever since I was maybe 10 I've always felt like I'd die at the age 23. I just turned 23 and it creeps me out. I've always been a depressed person and I kinda feel I might take my own life. Now that I'm 23 we just have to wait and see; but just so u k ow your not alone

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    • bananaface
      11 years ago | pl

      Maybe you should go and see a counsellor if you feel you may want to take your life, it's not a good way to be:/:)

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  • Blush123
    11 years ago | pl

    It's nearly impossible for anyone to see themselves years from now. Don't be so hard on yourself. If you love children it might be good to involve yourself in a career where you are helping them learn and grow. That might solve the career issues. As for the rest, let time tell. Truthfully, I can't even see myself 5 minutes from now but I'm grateful for every new breath.

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  • [Old Memory]
    11 years ago | pl

    I've met someone who felt this way before

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  • alv1592
    11 years ago | pl

    You're not supposed to know the future. Just wait and see what happens, you may have a wonderful life someday. Bad things will always happen, but that IS life. Sadly you have no control over whether or not you die of a disease, but hopefully you won't. And don't do anything to yourself, whatever you do.

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  • jesusdiedlol
    11 years ago | pl

    Are you the same person that has no remorse? If so you don't need to have children. If not then just live in the moment and accept the good :)

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  • Jiovanie
    11 years ago | pl

    I still think I won't make it passed 25. Something tells me I'll have an early death. I don't know why but it feels so certain.

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