Is it normal that i don't like sperm/semen

I'm just 19 yrs old. I don't like semen . I never had a boyfriend. I don't like the way it look I don't like the way it smell. Semen just gross me out. I'm worry that I will never have a boyfriend . I'm worried that I will be alone . I don't wanna be alone . I need someone one day. I want to have sex but I don't want to see no semen. I definitely don't wont it in my mouth.. It's just nasty . Semen it's just gross .. Ewwww I just don't like it ..