It's possible that you simply have a different way of coping or are good at letting go of things in general. Does this tend to occur with other areas of your life too when stressful things happen?
I said that for a while. I was molested by an older boy when I was in maybe 2nd grade, for a long time I didn't really remember it happened. Not like it was repressed or anything, it just somehow ended up tucked away in a little used corner of my memory. Then a conversation when I was in high school brought it up and for a long time I didn't really think it bothered me. It had been so long ago anyway, I'd kind of just stopped thinking about it after it happened so I figured I'd be over it.
But looking back now I was never really okay after that. I started having anger problems, started getting anxious and upset about minor things, that anxiety has persisted and is still a bit of an annoyance to me today. (There have been other incidents since then too, which didn't help) Now that I know a little better I can't believe I didn't see how it was effecting me sooner than I did. I had a pretty good home life (glossing over me and my mothers differences of opinion, we'd get into it sometimes but ultimately my parents are pretty awesome) and should have realised there was some trigger for the problems I had back then. It took a lot of analyzing my history to make some of those connections, but now at 23 I feel like the healing process is pretty well on it's way.
I am sorry that happened to you, if you do ever need to talk to anyone you can feel free to shoot me a message or something. :)
Is it normal that I don't care that I was rape/molested?
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It's possible that you simply have a different way of coping or are good at letting go of things in general. Does this tend to occur with other areas of your life too when stressful things happen?
I said that for a while. I was molested by an older boy when I was in maybe 2nd grade, for a long time I didn't really remember it happened. Not like it was repressed or anything, it just somehow ended up tucked away in a little used corner of my memory. Then a conversation when I was in high school brought it up and for a long time I didn't really think it bothered me. It had been so long ago anyway, I'd kind of just stopped thinking about it after it happened so I figured I'd be over it.
But looking back now I was never really okay after that. I started having anger problems, started getting anxious and upset about minor things, that anxiety has persisted and is still a bit of an annoyance to me today. (There have been other incidents since then too, which didn't help) Now that I know a little better I can't believe I didn't see how it was effecting me sooner than I did. I had a pretty good home life (glossing over me and my mothers differences of opinion, we'd get into it sometimes but ultimately my parents are pretty awesome) and should have realised there was some trigger for the problems I had back then. It took a lot of analyzing my history to make some of those connections, but now at 23 I feel like the healing process is pretty well on it's way.
I am sorry that happened to you, if you do ever need to talk to anyone you can feel free to shoot me a message or something. :)
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Thanks Shade :) I I will most definately do that.