Is it normal that i don't care any more"

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I had a life, then destroyed by a drunk driver. It wasn't me who actually was in the accident it was my 2 marriage spouse. Money rolled in after three years of struggling and I was booted out the door because spouse wanted to make sure his prev family was taken care of in case of his death (quadriplegic) and now I just don't care about anything or anyone, I distant my self from everyone and I just don't care. I believe I am posting this because maybe someone out there will say something that will trigger me to want to have a life again, because it is human nature to want to live and appreciate life that was given to all of us and in saying all this I still feel that I read this somewhere and I know this is how it is suppose to be I DON'T FEEL IT ANYMORE....

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  • beastie
    11 years ago | pl

    Wow you've been through so much :(

    You are burned out and depressed and who could blame you?

    You CAN come back from this and find the joy in living again but you may need a helping hand from a therapist to begin With.

    Good luck!

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  • RinTin
    11 years ago | pl

    I've been severely depressed before. When you look back later you realize you wasted part of your life doing nothing with yourself and regret it. I understand how you feel but force yourself to do something. I joined my schools cross country team even though I didn't want to, but knew that I've always loved running before my depression. I can say today that I'm glad I did it and I'm proud of myself even though it wasn't exactly fun at the time.

    Think about it. If you keep this up for a year or two and start gaining motivation to live your life again wouldn't you regret that you wasted a year of your life neither growing as a person or learning anything new? It's comparable to the feeling of someone who's in a comma for 5 years and they wake up and everyone has moved on with their lives, finished college, have families, have a career, while you've realized 5 years have been taken from you that you can't get back.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      11 years ago | pl

      i AM GOING ON THREE YEARS. i PUT ONE FOOT INFRONT OF THE OTHER TO SURVIVE (WORK AND PRETEND) THEN I SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP.

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      • ucipher8
        8 years ago | pl

        Hey now, i do that too. Life isnt perfect for everyone, life is linear. It travels in one direction and can go high or low. What more can i ask for now then a job that im always gonna hate - that pays my bills. And a place that i can afford to eat and sleep. On my two days off , i stay indoors where it is safe from public humiliation, and safe from being/letting others down.

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      • RinTin
        11 years ago | pl

        I agree with beastie. If you've been like that for 3 years maybe you should think about seeing a therapist. Sometimes when you hear something from someone else, face to face, it hits home. This or something has to happen in your life that breaks the cycle or makes you hit rock bottom.

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  • EnterUsernameHere
    11 years ago | pl

    In 6th grade I was the clingy/annoying friend but I didn't know it. My "best friend" decided to handle my clinginess by telling me to fuck off. She managed to convince the rest of my friends I was annoying as well. They stopped talking to me and actually started emotionally bullying me. I started to notice other people around me were treating me poorly too. People like my parents and family. I gave up on life in 8th grade. I stopped doing homework, talking to family and people at school. I got the chance to move across the country with my dad. I thought it would be a good opportunity for me, but it wasn't. Now I have Social Anxiety Disorder, absolutely no friends, suicidal thoughts, and a deep hatred for everyone.

    I'm sorry I just has to get that off my chest. It might not seem that bad to anyone else because I didn't add every single detail but it destroyed me. And I know Six Billion Secrets won't publish my secret. So yes, I know exactly how you feel.

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  • joybird
    11 years ago | pl

    I hope you left with some of their money!

    Just try to think that you dodged the bullet there! You could have been nursing that ungrateful swine for the next 20-30 years. Now you are free, free, free, to do whatever the hell you want to!

    Go for it - run wild and enjoy your life.

    It could've been worse! It could've been you in the accident ;o)

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  • [Old Memory]
    11 years ago | pl

    Alot of people say they don't care, when in reality they're just sad and wish they didn't care. I don't like it when people do it.

    I for one am quite care free from ost things, and it's not a good thing. I know for a fact I'll have problems keeping a job, house, and maybe a family one day due to me not caring much about anything.

    Being upset and wanting to not care is much better than not caring at all, believe me. And for your case, you best hope you're just upset.

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    • dsbdone
      11 years ago | pl

      I was sad 2006 when accident happen, lived in a hospital with spouse for four months came home a took care of him never showed my emotions to him because I was afraid he would sink deeper into depression three years I pushed every min trying to bring happiness to him, I was his hands his feet I took care of him because I loved him and now three years divorced I have been through two years of crying and feeling sorry and now I want to care because if I don't I am so scared of what will happen but I DON'T CARE AND I AM SCARED

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      • [Old Memory]
        11 years ago | pl

        If you didn't care, you wouldn't be scared.

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      • karmasAbich
        11 years ago | pl

        This really hit me hard.. at any moment a life can be climaxed and turned upside down, and I'm sorry it happened to you.
        Feel good about yourself though, you were his hands and his feet. You helped and did all you could do. Now that it has happened, and your realizing the problems you face, are in fact, problems, its the time to blossom into a stronger and more, prepared person. I mean that in a light way, you ARE stronger and you WILL benefit from this, you just can't see it yet. Believe that things will get easier, do things for yourself, it sounds like you deserve it. Honestly.

        Don't be scared, be happy. You helped, you stood by your partners side when he needed it the most.. and now look at what youre going through, that doesnt sound right. You deserve to be loved by everyone, and looked up to. As well as never ending thank-you's from your family and your partners. You did what any human being possible could do. You were there. I don't think most could handle all of it and still trug along to work. Thank you, for being a kind human being.

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