Is it normal that i don't care?

Alright, I'm 19 years old and I just feel like all I'm doing is surviving. Eating up space, wasting my life. I have no ambition to go out and succeed, or go beyond expectation, or do any of that shit people do. I hate the people who run our government, I hate the people who pretend nothing bad is going on in the world, and I hate that everyone's turned their back on what it means to be in America and be an American. However, I'm getting off topic, so let me proceed. So I have a girlfriend of five years who I love very much, but I tend to purposely blow her off. It's not that I mean to, I just can't say no to anyone- but that's not it. Where I live I have to keep my room clean, do miscalenious(SP, I KNOW)tasks, pack my ruck sack, do this detail, do that detail, all this shit. I do them half assed of course, I always have my room semi cluttered and slightly dirty, always pack my ruck sack last minute, forget shit, leave shit behind, I don't care about buying things, or replacing lost items even though I could've prevented losing them in the first place. In other words, I don't give a shit about anything. I feel like I'm depressed all the time and with good reason. I'm not motivated to do anything, but I do them anyways (sometimes). I feel like I'm rambling and that I'm a lost person. I mean I care, but I don't care at the same time. Does that make sense? Am I just a fucked up guy?

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  • Yeah. Life's shit. I'm basically the same way, I have no ambition of doing anything with my life..

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  • Dump your girlfriend she might be the reason

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  • You'll grow out of it.

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  • You will eventually grow out of it. It seems you might be just a bit depressed, however, and if it elevates, you may need to see a doctor.

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  • My arms are sore and on my right arm I have two random scratches, and then on my leg I have this one long big scratch. But I do think its normal, I am VERY un-organised. So maybe thats the reason of the scratches.

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  • You all seem so young on this site and hormonal.

    You are not really supposed to know what direction your life will take at 18-19 and all that your folk pray for is that you don't make any really stupid decisions that are going to ruin the rest of your life!

    I've just watched a local TV show where a drugged out teenager murdered his elderly neighbour. He wasn't caught until he was 46, and by then he was a different person. He was a successful businessman employing dozens of people and living in an extremely affluent area with a lovely wife and kids.

    Who of you can even imagine you're lives changing as much as that at your age. But, you will be completely different people in your 30s and 40s - just hang on in there. Life has a way of working itself out.

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  • At what point am I ment to care

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  • Sounds like good old fashioned DEPRESSION to me.

    I'm the same.

    I did meet a girl that's really chipper all the time so that is helping me.

    So.....maybe you need something new going on in your life like I did.

    It's not a cure though.
    Just a little comfort while you work shit out for yourself.

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  • I know how that feels. Kinda empty inside. Frustrated because you don't know what's going to happen in life. You feel worthless. Same as me. I think it's a stage that lots of us live through.

    I'm 18 and im going to study biology next year. I feel like I'm wasting my time and I won't succeed. People have told me it's mental.

    I guess it's part of depression or maybe just part of life...

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  • You are thinking too much. We all go through this. Whatever is keeping you down let go of it. Especially if it's dark like negative people, negative music and partying if anything. You are beautiful.

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  • It's very common to feel such things at that age. I should know, I'm 19 and I'm studying psychology and I'm going/have gone through it myself. It wouldn't be a bad idea to talk to someone about it all and get it off your chest. Otherwise, it could build up and lead to a mental breakdown. Again, I should know. Ive been there...

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  • I feel very similar, maybe you do actually have depression, or maybe some other mental problem. (I know, I have plenty of them myself.)
    Why don't you go and talk to a doctor about it? They may be able to help.

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  • Some of the issues you addressed could be caused by depression. Talk to your doc and explain how you feel. You could also try to find something that interests you and get involved. A hobby, education, volunteering, etc isn't a bad idea. You may not want to but forcing yourself is the first step. You may, after time, find that you enjoy it. I hope things look up for you soon...that's no way to live.

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  • You contradicted yourself. At the start you mentioned things that people should be caring about saying how you hate the way things are (a sign of caring). I think your just un-organised. Its normal, alot of people are like that on this site.

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