Is it normal that I do not want to grow old or see loved ones grow old

You dye your grey hair!

You cope when your favourite gran dies :o( by remembering all the good times and the laughs you had.

Hopefully your parents won't die until you are much older, have your own family to focus on, and you will be expecting it coz of their age. These factors all help you cope.

I don't know if you've read this on the site but my dad died last year and I was suddenly struck deaf in one ear, they said it's permanent and due to shock. It gave me severe vertigo and balance problems, and I'm in my 40s. If we don't let it out emotionally then our bodies have a way of trying to deal with grief :o(

I hope none of these happen to you for a very long time but in the meantime there's no point worrying your life away. Enjoy your time with those you love and laugh every day!! xx