Is it normal that i desire an apocalypse situation?
For whatever reason, I fantasize about an apocalypse - Not a zombie apocalypse where everybody but me dies, but just some sort of reason for civilization to be nonexistent. I enjoy the vision of traveling through an abandoned urban area or trekking across a desolate highway with only one (if not zero) person to accompany me, and eventually attempt to create a utopia-like village to attract other survivors.
The thought of testing my true natural ability, seeing my limits, and eventually rebirthing society as one, new world order is an enticing situation for me. Why is this, and is it normal?