Is it normal that i can't talk about my crushes?
I've always had this thing that if I have a major crush on someone, I find it impossible or very uncomfortable to talk about. If I try to talk about it, I get really nervous, terrible butterflies, and feel really embarrassed. Even when I'm alone, I can't say the person's name out loud. I don't tell people who my crushes are (although sometimes I'm not very good at hiding it) and I hate it when people find out. I guess I feel like once those emotions are external, they're no longer as special; if I keep them private then they're much more powerful and intimate, even if it's just in my head. Or perhaps that saying it aloud would jinx it.
I've been told that I take crushes way too seriously, but I really don't do this on purpose. I actually find it physically difficult to talk about them. So... IIN?