Is it normal that i can't seem to be capable of having close friends
I'm an 18 year old girl and I've never had a group of close friends, or pretty much any close friends whatsoever ever since I was in elementary school. I'm a pretty nice person and there's nothing noticeably strange about me that makes it harder for me to make friends. I only have two friends as of now and they're basically strangers, but the weird thing is even when people approach me first and want to hang out or whatever it's a huge turn off and I never give them a chance. Yet when I approach people first I feel like I'm the only one trying. I still get really lonely, but I just seem to hate most people in general and it's almost impossible to connect with anybody at all. It's a lose lose situation and it confuses me a lot. Have you ever felt this way?