Is it normal that i can't be happy?

There's nothing wrong with my life. I do well in school, I have a lot of "friends", I get invited to parties all the time (even though I never go). I just feel empty, I am clinically depressed, but before I was way more open about my being anti-social and i always rationalized that caused my depression. There's also a girl. This girl is amazing. She's pretty, fun, and weird like me. She also loves me. I don't know why, but she does. It got to the point where she was asking me out twice a week, but for some reason I don't want to date her. It's like an analogy to my life. Nothings wrong, but i still don't want it. My friend thinks it's because I do a lot of drugs (pain killers, anxiety meds, adhd meds, weed, acid, coke, salvia etc...) but I am in control of my addiction, I frequently quit each of these cold turkey, just to make sure I can. I just kind of feel empty, and there's no reason why. The only thing that upsets me is that I am sad for no reason. So essentially is it normal to be depressed.

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  • "And there's no reason why"

    Nothing in this world exists without reason; even falsehoods follow a guiding light. But there's no end to what could be causing your depression.

    If you have no vision for the future, there is no hope. The best advice I can give you is to follow your ambition.

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  • Don't become me. I have a boyfriend but its getting complicated and im falling back into the depression he dragged me out of. Its like a powerful magnet. and i am being dragged back to it. I cant save myself. He couldn't either. This is going to be the way i am. Don't let it go too deep. Date her. Live. Don't be another barely existing person.

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  • Don't be an idiot like me. We self sabotage because our minds are weak. If you have a life enjoy it. Don't be a stupid fool like me. I got a dam good woman but I don't know if I can trust her. Deep down inside I expect and maybe want people to hurt me so I can get even and destroy them. LIVE YOUR LIFE DUDE. DON'T BE A STUPID FOOL LIKE ME. I hate every one. You try to be better than me. Please

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  • first off; as a recreational drug user I find the combination of drugs you are on rather odd. Usually people are EITHER into drugs that have a euphoric effect, OR merely psychedelic, OR drugs that have a calming effect. Considering this mixed with your obviously unstable self-image it seems to me that you are either just going through puberty OR you really have issues.

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  • Now I'm pissed I wrote like two paragraphs and it all just deleted. I believe I have social phobia and a borderline personality disorder. I also have depression adhd and I'm bipolar. I used to take pills but stopped when about two years ago. I am addicted to cigarettes (tobacco) which I want to quit but haven't been strong enough to last an hour. I used to be addicted to weed and alcohol. Being able to buy beer when your 16 didn't help, but I'm 20 now and I hate alcohol it makes me sick and smoke weed every other month. But u do a lot which seems like an addiction I mean I'm depressed because I've been malested abused physically and mentally my dad called me names so severe that shot my self esteem, my ex step dad said he had visions of us fucking which is the most disgusting thing I've ever heard and I knew I didn't like him for a reason, my sister and two brother in laws got me high and drunk at 11, I've only seen people party do drugs smoke cigarettes lie and argue all day I wish I was a virgin,etc. I've been through some shit. I've been babbling now I've forgot your post, ugh! Lmao. Oh well I wanted to say don't be depressed especially when nothings wrong with your life, your young so be happy and be succesful. I am depressed because I haven't found the cure to let my past go, my wounds are still fresh. Allow yourself to be happy before evry little thing becomes unbearable. I've gotten so bad that I've been afraid to go outside some days and my esteem has left me, I can't remember ever being happy with me. Don't be depressed especially when your life is okay. Keep your head up.

    Warmly,

    Take it from a mad mixed woman!

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  • :O
    Wow, I thought I was the only one.

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  • salvia mixed with coke hmm? Weird combo.

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