Is it normal that i am scared of recovering my faith in humanity?

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I didn't have an easy life. When I was little, I thought that if I tried my best to be nice, people would like me... I was so wrong. I was bullied through almost all my life. Even the few friends that I got always made fun of me. My family was never particulary loving with me either... In fact, my parents and my siblings always had an abusive attitude towards me.

I lost absolutely all my faith in humanity. I can't love anyone. I can't even trust anyone. In fact, I have never been happy around people... the few moments of happiness in my life were when I was alone.

However, this year I changed of enviroment. I am meeting lots of new people and it surprises me how many actually try to be friendly with me. I have a new social circle now, people there respect me a lot and treat me with kindness. Honestly, I still find it awkward not being mistreated by people or not being mocked every second. I am still quite paranoid, whenever someone wants to hug me or give me a friendly touch, I feel like if someone was about to hit me and I get scared.

The thing is that I don't want to be disappointed again. I am feeling better now with these new people... But I still can't trust them. I am just so afraid that they will eventually show their true colors and treat me like trash someday... I mean, 100% of the people I met in my life were like that... why would these people be any different? I just feel like it is too much of a coincidence that suddenly everyone around me is nice.

So... I was wondering... is it ok to be so doubtful about people's intentions?

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  • Short4Words
    10 years ago | pl

    It's normal after what you've been through, but it sounds like you have met some nice people. You should take it step by step, develop trust with someone individually. I even do that even though I trust all my friends I usually only share certain things with a couple of them.

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  • IINtobeonthiswebsite
    8 years ago | pl

    Yes, people are FUCKED up right now. All this bullshit liberal crap that is going on, it SCARES me to death! B-rock Obamination is the culprit for a LOT of this crap. Liberals like him are all wacked out of their minds.

    You SHOULD be scared of most people....especially liberal-minded ones. Get to know someone before you "let them in".

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  • sunnymom
    9 years ago | pl

    The truth is that not everyone who appears nice can be counted on 100%. But you have been mistreated and abused. If you are careful about who you trust, you are in a better place than those who just aren't comfortable except with abusers.
    Take it slow and be kind to yourself. Watch out for your expectations for people to be too good or too bad. Be trustworthy to take good care of yourself.

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  • peterr
    9 years ago | pl

    You will be okay. Take your time and soon you will be able to ask men if you can suck them off. Takes a bit of nerve I would imagine.

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  • ObsessedWithReedus
    10 years ago | pl

    Your trust issues are normal, I totally understand where you are coming from with this one. Being constantly put down in life can definitely take a toll on you.

    But these new people you've met sound genuine. Take it slow, don't throw yourself into any deep relationships or friendships right away. But, think about it, if these people didn't like you, why would they hang out with you? They sound like they really like you for you, not just for a punching bag. Put a little faith in them, not all at once, but a bit more everyday.

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